I would like to say ditto to Lucky’s post yesterday. I’m bored with my life and I just moved 8 months ago. I think a lot of it is because I’m not meeting new people that I like and want to hang out with and because it’s a hassle to try to go out and find new people. Not a hassle as in going up to people and striking up a conversation, it’s just a hassle to go out. After roaming the streets waiting for an empty cab to pick you up, waiting in traffic when you finally get a ride, and scoping out the scene I’m exhausted before I ever even get my first drink and I’ve already spent $20 and an hour out. Let alone my friends here are all dudes. That’s problem #2. I’m missing the token partner in crime.
When Lucky was here we had a blast. We were meeting people left and right and it was the first time since I had moved to the big city that I gave a guy my number. When I’m out with a group of guys it’s like no one will come up to me because I’m standing there with 3 dudes, but then I don’t feel comfortable going up to hot guys because what do I say? Hey do you wanna come do some shots with me and my friends…Anth, JM, and Doogie? You guys will have tons in common! You all have weiners.
I guess my first step, as lesbian as it sounds, would be to meet a single girl to go out with. Then we can go out and meet guys. I do have Jess, but she’s one of those girls. And by those girls I mean she is the type of girl where yes she is a cute girl, but she’s no prettier than me or any other girl, but some how she gets all the guys. Yeah, maybe it’s because she can’t handle her booze and gets drunk after one drink and guys think shes easy or maybe it’s because she makes it a point to eye fuck the shit out of every guy that she thinks is attractive. Maybe a little of both.
But while we’re being honest, I don’t think my soulmate/person I’m going to marry is in this city – I’m here for my career. 100% of the guys I have met in this city are into themselves and themselves only and I am not into that. It’s exactly like college. The only thing they do on the weekend is party and get laid.
For example, 2 weekends ago I had plans to go to the beach and hang out with Jess. After the beach we were going to come back get ready and go out for a girls night. 20 minutes before she’s supposed to be at my apartment she calls me and says she’s bringing her friend Mary, fine with me.
When she gets to my apartment she informs me that we’re going to meet her flavor of the week, his friend, and cousin at the beach and they want us to bring a bottle of alcohol and they will get chasers. Unfair, but whatever I have an exccess of booze from my days as a liquor promoter so I grabbed a bottle of that and we were on our way.
We get to the beach and first I meet Jess’ flavor, he’s cute but totally into himself and barely paid her any attention all day long because he was busy picking up other girls on the beach right in front of her face. I mean why wouldn’t he? She had already slept with him on their first date so there’s nothing else to look forward to. So he got wasted (off of my alcohol) and wandered around looking for his next piece of ass.
While on the other hand, his cousin (to my surprise, was The Bed Wetter) and friend had their sights focused on me. Before the friend ever heard me speak a word had already told Jess that he liked me, and Jess had already conveyed the information to me. Like no, he doesn’t like me, he likes the way I look and wants to fuck me. After I started the down slope to 30 I decided I’m not dealing with guys like that anymore because they’re the assholes that will inevitiably fuck me over. Because honestly? What in the hell makes this guy think he even stands a chance with me? Not that I am some beauty queen awesome person who thinks they’re better than everyone else, but you really think we are 12 years old and you can tell my friend you like me and I’ll just rip my clothes off?
This is what I mean, every guy here is full of themselves. If they have a corporate job they think they’re awesome and they can get any girl that their stone cold hearts desire. No thank you.
So anyway, I’ve made the executive decision that once I’ve been at my job for 1 year (January) I’m going to start the job search again. I think I’ve proven to anyone that gives a shit that I can make it in the big city and now I’m over it. If I’m ever going to get married and settle down I don’t want it to be with one of these full of themselves assholes who will probably have an affair with his sexretary.
The people here aren’t good people, and that’s what I need in my life. I’ve prooven myself and there’s 5 months left on the clock, so here you go Big City… it’s your turn.