After I found out D was cheating on me, I was upset for about a day. Then, about a week later, I found out he got dumped.
This made me feel better. It even made me laugh a little.
About a week after that, I found out he got fired from his job.
For stealing cash.
This made me dance in the middle of the grocery store.
Later, when I told this story to one of my guy friends, he told me that was mean of me, and that I shouldn’t wish ill on someone.
Let me set the record straight. I never wished ill upon him, I was merely celebrating the fact that justice had been served.
Although I now know that Karma is a real thing, finding out that not only was my ex cheating on me, but he was also stealing money the entire time…makes me wonder about the kind of person I am.
How did I have clearly NO idea who this person was? We practically lived together and little did I know he was living like 3 lives.
Since all of this went down, I’ve been getting several calls from blocked numbers…could it be D?
I have no idea.
I hate to admit it, but all of this really has me questioning relationships in general. I feel like the more I date, the more clueless I become.
I spoke to my therapist about this, and he told me it was okay to feel this way. He said it was understandable that I’m feeling guarded and even a little bit bitter.
According to Lopez, when I find the one, he’s going to be the one even if I’m guarded, and even if it takes me 6 months to come around.
This thought comforts me. Tremendously.